Things have been going from strength to strength with my new man. He is so kind and considerate, (he has even started working on my deck?) so why am I struggling.
I am finding it very hard as I have never had someone accept me unconditionally and honestly. Yesterday was a bad MS day and he called down to give me a hug and listen. It is such a long time since I had a man do that or even trusted a man enough to tell him that I needed some emotional support. It makes me happy but at the same time I feel so vulnerable and uncomfortable, I am in new territory. Talking to some of my friends, they are questioning, do I love myself enough, do I not realise that everything Mr GAA is doing for me is what I deserve, I am worthy of love. I really have lots more work to do on myself, I thought that I had everything dealt with but new stuff is just appearing.
Normally I pick the wrong man and it is all about him. With time he just disappears and I end up broken-hearted and hurt as I have given too much away to quickly. I thought that I had learnt from my mistakes but maybe freezing my heart wasn’t the right decision.
Mr GAA and I are taking this slow, I suppose that is the best way, one day at a time?
Anyone got any advice?