A lot of people in work today asked if I was ok, they said that I didn’t look like me, I must look so wrecked. Can’t really deny it as I am shattered. I had a quiet weekend where I did too much without realising it..
On Sat, after house work, car cleaning and cooking I headed to Lucan to spend some quality time with my Dad (mass). On returning home I stumbled on the step outside my house, so frustrating, so annoying, my knees where all cleared up and now a new scrape, uurghhhh
Sun I was up early, more housework and ironing thankfully knee didn’t feel too bad 🙂 In the evening, I headed into town to meet an old friend, someone who hadn’t seen me since before I got MS, so I was really hoping that my foot would be good and that I wouldn’t see the pity in his eyes. All was going great when we decided to change venues and get food. Then I stumbled, inside my heart broke but outside I was the strong Nicola, the one many of you know so well. It was so hard, especially when I wanted so badly to have a normal evening.. My friend and his friend were so great, they made me feel comfortable and secure without being condescending but it was hard. Some people are so kind and considerate. So in the end a good night.
Mon headed to work with arnica on the bruises, I was tired from the late night but glad to be back in routine. The day went well enough, I had to get extra photos for the HP video and thankfully all went off without incident. Then on my way to my car, I fell over the edge of a mat, that was the final straw, 3 falls in 3 days. I got to my car and burst into tears, why me? Why can’t I have a break? Why can’t I walk normally? Why? Why? Why?
From work to Reiki where I cried and cried as a result my eyes were v sore, so no wonder I looked wrecked today
Sometimes MS is such a bitch, you just want to get on with your life like a normal person but it has other plans.. I try and try, I want that to be enough but it isn’t..
My only saving grace is that it will pass, it always does
I suppose I am telling you this to try and make you thankful of what you have.